Today is the day when my father passed away four years back and I wrote these words in my blog four years back, when I heard about his passing on while I was in training in Bangalore. I still have the same raw emotions in my heart and these words still bring on the pain.
KNOCK KNOCK KNOCKING ON HEAVEN'S DOOR
He was there when I took my first steps
He was there when I fell down and cried
He was there when the only thing I did
Was to suffer and make him cry too
He was even there when
I got up to leave
Him all alone
He came to drop me off, with a smile
Now, he is knocking on heavens door
And I am far away, holding my breath
Waiting and watching him
To take his last few left
Though ventilators have taken over
Within the watch full eyes of
My young doctor brother
And I fear the ring of my mobile
My brother gave him only
50-50 Chance
And promised to call me
When the other 50% chance
Turns into 100%
My thoughts, my fears
Have now transformed into chanting of my soul
With each breath
His thought comes
And He smiles
Watching me holding my breath
While He waits upon the threshhold
Counting on and on
Knocking on heavens doors
Now I smile
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WHISPERS OF DISTANT STARS
The valley silently
Unfolded herself
As you walked across
To sit besides me
And smile
The birds talked to
Tall and silent Deodar Trees
In their melodious songs
And you reached out
To hold my hand
Looking through the setting sun
Smiling through the distant stars
Whispering to me
In the bird songs
That you missed me
And I turned around
To find you
Far away from me
But
I could still kiss you
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I have enjoyed reading Haiku's and love the way those paint pictures with words, so here are few of them of my own, let me know if you see the picture. I usually dont follow the strict rules of the japanese style of haiku's and take writers liberty so I hope the purists here would not mind it. Click here to know more about HAIKU
I have enjoyed reading Haiku's and love the way those paint pictures with words, so here are few of them of my own, let me know if you see the picture. I usually dont follow the strict rules of the japanese style of haiku's and take writers liberty so I hope the purists here would not mind it. Click here to know more about HAIKU
SHE SLEEPS
She throws her legs
Unwrapping
My dreams
SUPPER
Between bites
Her eyes find me
I reach out to remove a crumb from her lips
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Om Namah Shivaya
Whispers...is the best part of ur blog!! jus love watchin the pictures n readin the verses..good job!
ReplyDeleteThanks Zeenat, I appreciate your comments... for me this section is so personal and valuable too..
ReplyDeleteOm Namah Shivaya
The first poem is very powerful for me, maybe because I somehow relate to it. I loved it when I came across it on your other blog a few months back and still do. Its writing must have released the tension a little bit and I hope the knot is getting more loose with time... although I know that, no matter what philosophy teaches us, accepting the death of our loved ones is one of the hardest things in life.
ReplyDeleteThanks Tsvetelina
ReplyDeleteAnd I agree, accepting the loss of loved one's is one of the hardest things in life.
Writing does release lot of my tensions and dulls my senses to feel pain. Its one of the most practical outlet I found for myself but still a long way to go....
Om Namah Shivaya
your words bring tears...my wife lost her mom a few years back...i was at a loss for words as i sat next to her and watched her last breath...heavy one shot.
ReplyDeleteI understand the first so well... and love the thoughts you voice. Writing it out, writing from emotion, can be very healing.
ReplyDeleteI love especially the "Whispers from Distant Stars," and there, the first stanza I find just breathtaking, how the valley unfolds to reveal the beloved. The last one too, about being far away, but not too far to kiss. This is really exquisite writing. Thank you!
Beautiful tribute Shashi and such sadness and like Brian it brought tears to me too but you will always remember the best of him for as long as you live. Great one shot~
ReplyDeleteA perfect tribute .. I have no words for that ..
ReplyDeletebut the haiku on sleep after that , well thats a beauty :)
Shashi, a beautiful tribute. Also, enjoyed your haiku very much. cheers
ReplyDeleteI love your first poem, very touching, very personal - thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteI will keep coming back for more inspiring peotry :)
loveNlight
Gabi
Shashi, these words are powerful and beautiful. Nice one shot. Love and Light, Sender
ReplyDeleteVery touching. I lost my dad 8 years ago and can still feel that pain.
ReplyDeleteIt is painful but we have to live. Thats what I am doing. And I am happy in my own fashion too..
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Beautiful tribute to your father. I am so sorry for your loss. Thanks for sharing your tender and touching words.
ReplyDeleteAmazing words an beautiful tribute :) It is hard to write these type of poems in my opinion and I really do admire those who can do it, and it really touched my heart deep down in the bottom, having such person that once existed by your side, is something precious and unforgettable throughout a lifetime :)
ReplyDeleteheartfelt and beautiful sentiments.
ReplyDeletelove the images,
breath taking!
Such poignant words. Beautiful.
ReplyDeletehe was there…and i can feel so much love and honor for your father in your lines..this is truly touching my heart - beautiful write!
ReplyDeleteI saw the picture
ReplyDeletepainted with delicate words
just like I was there
Nice One Shot!
Your words seem to wrap themselves around my hand and lead me upon a passage of love, loss, passion, devotion and reflection. A beautiful homage to your father. All three are exquisite pieces.
ReplyDeleteI am sure your Ftaher will have loved this, beautiful poem, thank you for visiting me :)
ReplyDeleteTouched me very deeply...amazing post my friend!! Thanks for sharing xx
ReplyDeleteSorry for your loss. A very touching post.
ReplyDeleteoh wow...nice verse...i felt it and an honor to those that passed...
ReplyDelete@Brian, @Wild Rose, @Senderupwords, @Gautami, @Suji, @Riika, @Jingle, @Anthony, @Claudia, @William @KB
ReplyDeletethanks for your nice words for the tribute and sharing the moments of loss....
@GospelWriter thanks for liking the Whispers too...
@Ladynimue Thanks for enjoying the Haiku on Sleep too...
@Dustus - I am happy that you loved the haiku too... thanks
@Gabriela - you can explore this blog there are many poems in the Whispers section.
@Collective E: Your words are so beautiful....
ॐ नमः शिवाय
Om Namah Shivaya
Hello..your piece perfectly captures the heartbreaking last few moments before losing someone so precious. I know that rawness you spoke off in your prologue. The grief diminishes but the loss never does. Your work give it quickness, sharp and immediate. Well written. Thank you, Gay (@beachanny) link to mme.canongate
ReplyDeleteThe heartbreaking ache of a grief held close. Beautiful is not the word, as I know too well how raw it is. As a tribute, lovely and one that your father should be proud of. I think it is beautiful that you allow him to still walk with you. I find it important to recognize the spirit of loved ones lost, both in past and present.
ReplyDeletethank you for sharing.
Katherine
A truly moving tribute. I also enjoyed your haiku. Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteThanks Belinda... I am happy that you liked it... Glad that you noticed the Haiku....
ReplyDeleteThanks.
ॐ नमः शिवाय
Om Namah Shivaya
These poems are so inspiring...well written.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your beauty.
sorry that you father paSSED away this day...
ReplyDeletestay well.
prayers.
very touching words.
ReplyDeleteI enjoy your style and will be back to read more.
Thanks Liv2write2day for liking this. I appreciate your words...
ReplyDelete@Jingle: Thanks for your message
@Joycefied: Thanks for appreciation and I will be grateful too for your visit again...
जय दुर्गा जी, जय काली माँ
Jai Durga and Kali Ma
The first one was a beautiful tribute to your dad, Shashi... very touching!
ReplyDeleteAnd Whispers -- pphheeww!! OUT OF THIS WORLD!! Too good!!
I appreciate your willingness to share your pain, resolution to peace and then love. That is what life is all about. I SEE IT TOO.
ReplyDeleteWoohoo! That's a lot of poems!!! I love them all!
ReplyDeletelovely poems Shashi.. the emotions on play with whispers was just so apt...
ReplyDeleteloved the haiku's too