Om Namah Shivaya

Om Namah Shivaya

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Jun 13, 2010


Today is the day when my father passed away four years back and I wrote these words in my blog four years back, when I heard about his passing on while I was in training in Bangalore. I still have the same raw emotions in my heart and these words still bring on the pain.


He was there when I took my first steps
He was there when I fell down and cried
He was there when the only thing I did
Was to suffer and make him cry too
He was even there when
I got up to leave
Him all alone
He came to drop me off, with a smile

Now, he is knocking on heavens door
And I am far away, holding my breath
Waiting and watching him
To take his last few left
Though ventilators have taken over
Within the watch full eyes of
My young doctor brother
And I fear the ring of my mobile
My brother gave him only
50-50 Chance
And promised to call me
When the other 50% chance
Turns into 100%

My thoughts, my fears
Have now transformed into chanting of my soul
With each breath
His thought comes
And He smiles
Watching me holding my breath
While He waits upon the threshhold
Counting on and on
Knocking on heavens doors

Now I smile

The valley silently
Unfolded herself
As you walked across
To sit besides me
And smile

The birds talked to
Tall and silent Deodar Trees
In their melodious songs
And you reached out
To hold my hand

Looking through the setting sun
Smiling through the distant stars
Whispering to me
In the bird songs
That you missed me

And I turned around
To find you
Far away from me
I could still kiss you

I have enjoyed reading Haiku's and love the way those paint pictures with words, so here are few of them of my own, let me know if you see the picture. I usually dont follow the strict rules of the japanese style of haiku's and take writers liberty so I hope the purists here would not mind it. Click here to know more about HAIKU

She throws her legs
My dreams

Between bites
Her eyes find me
I reach out to remove a crumb from her lips
Om Namah Shivaya


  1. the best part of ur blog!! jus love watchin the pictures n readin the verses..good job!

  2. Thanks Zeenat, I appreciate your comments... for me this section is so personal and valuable too..
    Om Namah Shivaya

  3. The first poem is very powerful for me, maybe because I somehow relate to it. I loved it when I came across it on your other blog a few months back and still do. Its writing must have released the tension a little bit and I hope the knot is getting more loose with time... although I know that, no matter what philosophy teaches us, accepting the death of our loved ones is one of the hardest things in life.

  4. Thanks Tsvetelina
    And I agree, accepting the loss of loved one's is one of the hardest things in life.
    Writing does release lot of my tensions and dulls my senses to feel pain. Its one of the most practical outlet I found for myself but still a long way to go....
    Om Namah Shivaya

  5. your words bring wife lost her mom a few years back...i was at a loss for words as i sat next to her and watched her last breath...heavy one shot.

  6. I understand the first so well... and love the thoughts you voice. Writing it out, writing from emotion, can be very healing.

    I love especially the "Whispers from Distant Stars," and there, the first stanza I find just breathtaking, how the valley unfolds to reveal the beloved. The last one too, about being far away, but not too far to kiss. This is really exquisite writing. Thank you!

  7. Beautiful tribute Shashi and such sadness and like Brian it brought tears to me too but you will always remember the best of him for as long as you live. Great one shot~

  8. A perfect tribute .. I have no words for that ..
    but the haiku on sleep after that , well thats a beauty :)

  9. Shashi, a beautiful tribute. Also, enjoyed your haiku very much. cheers

  10. I love your first poem, very touching, very personal - thanks for sharing.

    I will keep coming back for more inspiring peotry :)


  11. Shashi, these words are powerful and beautiful. Nice one shot. Love and Light, Sender

  12. Very touching. I lost my dad 8 years ago and can still feel that pain.

    It is painful but we have to live. Thats what I am doing. And I am happy in my own fashion too..

    ode to un-punctuated verses

  13. Beautiful tribute to your father. I am so sorry for your loss. Thanks for sharing your tender and touching words.

  14. Amazing words an beautiful tribute :) It is hard to write these type of poems in my opinion and I really do admire those who can do it, and it really touched my heart deep down in the bottom, having such person that once existed by your side, is something precious and unforgettable throughout a lifetime :)

  15. heartfelt and beautiful sentiments.
    love the images,
    breath taking!

  16. he was there…and i can feel so much love and honor for your father in your lines..this is truly touching my heart - beautiful write!

  17. I saw the picture
    painted with delicate words
    just like I was there

    Nice One Shot!

  18. Your words seem to wrap themselves around my hand and lead me upon a passage of love, loss, passion, devotion and reflection. A beautiful homage to your father. All three are exquisite pieces.

  19. I am sure your Ftaher will have loved this, beautiful poem, thank you for visiting me :)

  20. Touched me very deeply...amazing post my friend!! Thanks for sharing xx

  21. Sorry for your loss. A very touching post.

  22. oh wow...nice verse...i felt it and an honor to those that passed...

  23. @Brian, @Wild Rose, @Senderupwords, @Gautami, @Suji, @Riika, @Jingle, @Anthony, @Claudia, @William @KB

    thanks for your nice words for the tribute and sharing the moments of loss....

    @GospelWriter thanks for liking the Whispers too...
    @Ladynimue Thanks for enjoying the Haiku on Sleep too...
    @Dustus - I am happy that you loved the haiku too... thanks
    @Gabriela - you can explore this blog there are many poems in the Whispers section.
    @Collective E: Your words are so beautiful....

    ॐ नमः शिवाय
    Om Namah Shivaya

  24. Hello..your piece perfectly captures the heartbreaking last few moments before losing someone so precious. I know that rawness you spoke off in your prologue. The grief diminishes but the loss never does. Your work give it quickness, sharp and immediate. Well written. Thank you, Gay (@beachanny) link to mme.canongate

  25. The heartbreaking ache of a grief held close. Beautiful is not the word, as I know too well how raw it is. As a tribute, lovely and one that your father should be proud of. I think it is beautiful that you allow him to still walk with you. I find it important to recognize the spirit of loved ones lost, both in past and present.
    thank you for sharing.

  26. A truly moving tribute. I also enjoyed your haiku. Thanks for sharing.

  27. Thanks Belinda... I am happy that you liked it... Glad that you noticed the Haiku....
    ॐ नमः शिवाय
    Om Namah Shivaya

  28. These poems are so inspiring...well written.
    Thank you for sharing your beauty.

  29. sorry that you father paSSED away this day...
    stay well.

  30. very touching words.
    I enjoy your style and will be back to read more.

  31. Thanks Liv2write2day for liking this. I appreciate your words...

    @Jingle: Thanks for your message

    @Joycefied: Thanks for appreciation and I will be grateful too for your visit again...

    जय दुर्गा जी, जय काली माँ
    Jai Durga and Kali Ma

  32. The first one was a beautiful tribute to your dad, Shashi... very touching!
    And Whispers -- pphheeww!! OUT OF THIS WORLD!! Too good!!

  33. I appreciate your willingness to share your pain, resolution to peace and then love. That is what life is all about. I SEE IT TOO.

  34. Woohoo! That's a lot of poems!!! I love them all!

  35. lovely poems Shashi.. the emotions on play with whispers was just so apt...
    loved the haiku's too


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